It’s my birthday. I’ve always felt uneasy about my birthday for a variety of reasons – it feels like a lot of my life’s bigger emotional upheavals have happened within a few weeks of the day. After a while, I actually started planning to take myself on trips around now, both as a treat for myself, and also to put some distance there. It’s worked pretty well, I think. Today’s not much different – I’m actually writing this post the day before and have it scheduled, as I’ll be on the road. Just a day trip this time, but still.
I’ve been feeling a little weird lately anyway, honestly. We’re in the process of preparing the house to sell (planning to list it at the end of the month-ish), and so I’m trying to go through old boxes from the last move that I just hadn’t gotten to (you know how it is), and we’re whittling things down to put stuff in storage while we hit the road again – this time, the plan is to take a few months to trek across Canada. Exactly when and where will depend on when the house sells, but regardless it’s the next plan. (Some of you may be wondering “didn’t you just move in there?” And you’re right – it’ll be not quite 2 years here. Lovely house, no real regrets, but for various reasons I’m not going to bother enumerating, we decided it was time to move on.)
I’ve always had this sort of vision of having a place that acts like a base of operations – a spot to come home to, yes, but also a spot to re-collect yourself before you take off on another wander. I’m pretty sure I’d need to win a small lottery to pull off affording both the home and the travel these days, though. So for now it seems like an either/or, and the scales for both Simone and I have tipped towards the wander.
I’ve been trying to put out a weekly longer, non-life post the past few weeks, and I plan to continue that, but I’m taking an indulgence this week. It’s my birthday, so I’d appreciate it if you could do me a favor: just do your best. Even if it’s small increments, move forward on getting a little bit happier, a little bit safer and more secure, a little bit more in a good headspace than you were yesterday. That’s all I really want for my birthday, just everyone I care about to be alright, or at least moving in that direction. I know that’s a lot to ask these days, but try. It’d mean a lot to me.
